Hey baby, I had a lot of tests done on me when we first found out you were not going to be with us anymore. Your daddy and i finally received the results. Turns out i have a condition of blood which stopped the placenta from working. its unfortunate i don't get symptoms for it otherwise they could have tested me a lot earlier and we could of done something about it. i am so sorry for this baby, i wish i had of known about it sooner, i could have saved you. I was supposed to nurture you into this world and instead i killed you. Words cannot express how sorry i am for that! I still miss you so much thats it physically painful. I still feel you in my arms every now and again, i wish i had of cuddled you the day you came into this cruel world, protected you, kissed you. Daddy and i have been talking about trying for a little brother or sister for you to watch over. I know you will always protect and watch out for them, i just wish you were here to do it in person! sweet dreams little man all my love mummy xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx