Hey little man, Really missing you at the moment. I just want to hold you close and give you a big cuddle. Sing to you until you fall asleep. More than anything though, i really want to cuddle, kiss you and tell you that i have never loved anyone as much i love you. I think about you every day and have a little cry. I try to talk to you but its so heartbreaking to do so. It physically hurts. Your dad and i are going away on holiday soon. Your dad had suggested it when we first found out about you because we both wanted to run away from the news and not admit it to each other but now we are going just to spend quality time with each other. Dont worry though, nanny and grandad will look after you tree. Your tree is growing well and the weather is on our side and watering it well. We are going to put a plaque on soon, after our holiday. Christmas is starting to become a topic of conversation at the moment and i keep seeing loads of things in the shops that i would love to spoil you with. I was going to decorate the flat, im sure it would have looked like santa's groto, although im sure your dad wouldnt have been too impressed. I doubt we will be decorating now. I will get you a little pressie for christmas and your birthday each year, i promise. I have not yet faced the fact that your not here. It all seems surreal, even now. I know we will meet again some day, for me that couldnt come soon enough. Both me and your dad would swap places with you in a heartbeat if we could. I am so sorry! I love you Logan. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx