Hey baby. I have told your sister loads about you and i will continue to make sure she knows you are her big brother. I know you are with us both. I have been getting frustrated recently because i keep hearing the phrases 'first birthday as a mum' and 'daddies first fathers day'. I just want to scream at them that i was a mother two years ago but i know thats not right so i just nod along and smile as much as it kills me on the inside. Also, your sister has been doing a lot of firsts this week like rolling and showing me the first signs of a tooth, as much as this is exciting, it makes me realise just how much we missed out on and can never have. I love you baby boy, more than you will ever know. Mummy xxxxxxxx